The Relentless Pressure to Get Things Done!

I’m sitting here, and wondering why I can’t seem to fully relax. When I sense down deeper into it, I can feel, in the base of my abdomen and pelvis, a tension. It doesn’t want to let go. It’s not giving me permission to fully let go. It says: “Andrew, you know you want to get these things done – it’s for your own good even!”

“You have to get the greenhouse built so the plants/veggies don’t die when the first frost comes.”

“You need to put the insulation in the house walls. It’s going to make such a difference to the heating and maintaining a warm refuge through winter”

These things are very true, they make complete sense, and are aligned with my values, goals and aspirations.

Yet I am experiencing them as a relentless ‘pusher’ of my energy, and pressure. I’m not able to fully rest and relax. They are doggedly dogging me down, and on to getting all the other things done, so I can get to them, and when they’re done … ‘then you can rest’, the voice says … ‘then you can rest back and bask in the accomplishment, and enjoy the benefits!’

Thing is – I’ve been here before!

I do get the occasional, momentary, true sense of arrival… completeness. Permission to rest and bask. But, it’s not long before a new cycle starts up. New aspirations, leading to new goals and expectations according to specified timelines etc.

THEN the measurement, valuation and validation of my worth becomes hinged to them!

So, I’m cracking this one now! I’ve cracked it before, but this time I’m cracking it! – Lifting the lid and eating the whole boiled egg!

I don’t want my life to be a relentless and incessant pursuit of stuff! Sure, I want, and will continue to take heart, pleasure and value in accomplishing things. But I want and know I need to balance this more with contentment, valuing and gratitude for the way things are just as they are.

Once I realised this (AGAIN!), I was able to fully relax. My pelvic floor eased, and I sank into myself again.  ‘There you are’, I felt Another Deeper Voice say. ‘There YOU are!’ It’s okay – it’s never all going to get, or be done – Do some, and then be Done!

Rest - most of us deep down are craving rest – and when we get this rest, our sense of Self restores – we can be ourselves again and enjoy what is all around us.